YES!! Decathlon lets me in for internship, 5 months from may to september, normally I can have 2 weeks back to China before the chargee de communication commerciale's work begins. I went to CC in order to thank Him to give me this wonderful chance, will this be the good sign for the start of my career? lol I'm anxious to see!!!!!

 

What would be the BEST choice for people? since we are always looking for the better ones. Being greedy is one of the original sins in Bible, and I have no arguments to fight against this. Am I too greedy when it comes to Z?? Or this is the game between moth and fire??? Why I'm just soo addicted to it? Is this God's will? What He wants me to know?? I just cant help asking myself again and again these questions. I'm once again feeling that we are sooo small and limited, we cant understand what He wants to show us, but there must be a reason right? Be patient, wait and see!!!!!

 

Good news is that, today finally I feel that I'm myself. I finally know how to really be myself, you tell what you feel without any hidden sides. Don't care anymore how he feels, because he doesn't have to like you but he has to respect you which is the most important. You keep going like this, be brave and be smart!!!!

哎呀 哎呀，时间过得真是快哈，2007年了。 不过今年春节我还过得真是不赖呢！！ 先是情人节晚上接到decathlon通知去面试的电话，wooooohooooo,有史以来最快乐的情人节礼物，呵呵呵， 接着又收到coci同意我去实习的邮件，还安排我两个月在巴黎培训，四个月回上海！！！ 好开心阿 呵呵，后来又收到学校通知去取maitrise的文凭，真是人逢喜事精神爽呀，最近特别滋润。今天早上去decathlon, 路上又碰到一个很随和的法国弟弟（应该是个弟弟吧），大家喝了一杯咖啡，简单交流了一下，人还真是不错呢：） 早上面试基本上还顺利，后天给我答复，不过等待总是让人心急的，我还是老习惯，做好最坏的打算，这样即使结果不理想也不至于特别失望，呵呵 有些阿Q哦

 

嗯，新年新气象，这个头开得还是不错的，看来我2007年事业要发达啦，哈哈 不过这两天我又开始超级厌学了，做学生太久，虽然我知道等我做了广大就业人群中的一员之后我也会厌倦工作，又会重新怀念学校生活，不过人就是这样啦，永远都是不满足的！！这样不好 不好，但是没有人可以摆脱骄傲和奢求的，从这个角度上来说，我还真是相信人是有sin的呢。

 

好啦 好啦，今天是高兴的，明天应该是焦急的，后天希望是成功的！！！

 

加油 加油！！！ 努力！！ 奋斗！！！！！

Interessting to know the differences between monochronic people and polychronic people, the generalization listed below do not apply equally to all cultures, but they will help convey a pattern:

 

MONOCHRONIC PEOPLE

do one thing at a time; concentrate on the job; take time commitments seriously (deadlines, schedules); are low-context and need information; are commutted to the job; adhere religiously to plans; are concerned about not disturbing others,follow rules of privacy and consideration; show grat respect  for private property,seldom borrow or lend; emphasize promptness; are accustomed to short-term relationships

 

POLYCHRONICA PEOPLE

do many things at once; are highly distractible and subject to interruptions; condider time commitments an objective to be achieved, if possible; are high-context and already have information; are committed to people and human relationships; change plans often and easily; are more concerned with those who are closely related (family, friends, close business associates) than privacy; borrow and lend things often and easily; base promptness on the relationship; have strong tendency to build lifetime relationships

Hello blog,

 

     Hey, I got an email tonight from a PME (small or middle sized company), an international commerce company in agribusiness. They asked me to attend a collective meeting this wednesday morning. This was supposed to be very exciting, but somehow, i got very scared, then I'm wondering, what I am scared of????

 

     The key words rushed into my mind right after reading this email were as follows: paris, leaving lille, away from Z, pretty clothes, animal food (agribusiness), finding appartment, own space, money, job, diploma, growing up, dad, little woman, staying home, bussiness woman, free air tikets back to china, life in France, husband, cultural differences... ... I was just suddenly confused... and wow, I scared myself.

 

     I know it's normal to have this kind of feeling, you know, as I'm living as a full time student for too long, and I think I'm ready for starting my professional life BUT when an opportunity right comes to me no matter how much value it can bring to me, I just hesitate between taking it with courage (it might turn out to be very very bad experience) and giving it up, paralysing myself by staying in a FAKE? stability.

 

     Am I being protected for too long? Is this normal that I've been questioning myself all the time??

 

     Well, anyway, no matter how it goes, this is just life, we all need to learn when to act and how to act.

 

     Go go girl, and go go girls, you are the best!!!!

This is the question I found most interesting today after a short talk with dad on phone: how do I relieve my pressure? and how do other people do??

 

Since I have no motivation and no time today to do any research, I'm just gonna write something according to my own awareness: well, as to get rid of the pressure, some people smoke, some run, some go to a bar looking for a temporary fun...... how do I do usually?? TALK, yes I talk, I talk to myself, I talk to some nearby friends and then I repeat the same talk with different people who might be interested, and suddenly I just found that oh my god I talk a lot!!!! is that too much??

 

I'm wondering, does the talking really help to solve my problem? or has it ever??  Why somehow I get the impression that I have become or becoming a woman I hate, well you know, who is obsessed enough by repeating the same topic. BANG, this is very scary!!! Do all the humain beings have the same obsession or it's more a woman thing or it is just me? Should I try smoking or running ?? well at least that will be more cool!!

 

How about me talking about others' problems?? well that is another story. I just somehow sometimes overestimate the pressure that the person is going through. Then I blurt out some emotional expressions which are not helpful  but sound funny or weird. But why I overestimate their problems? I cant help wondering: Am I always having a desire of playing a saver's role?? well you know kind:" I totally understand what you have been through right now" or " I guess you must have looked over again all the lovely pictures of you and your exgirlfriend last night because you seem to be very sad today on MSN"......  well sometimes it turns out to be very sensitive and caring but sometimes it just turns out to be weird.

 

The beauty of life is that you think you understand and you think you've made a great progress in understanding but there are always way too many question marks waiting for you with a lovely mockery!!!

 

I love my life!! I love the way I've been made :)

hmmmm I've always been thinking why I'm too depressed these days, and till this morning I talked with an old body, and a depressive truth(I guess it is the truth about myself)came into my awareness: I was a bit more too mature when I was a kid but now I act like a child sometimes with my age reaching 25. Is that a shame?? or it is just normal because everyone mature in the world is acting as a kid from time to time?

 

Or it is just the very commonplace problem with everybody: the problem of laziness! well I guess it is that, I am lazy, and the worst part is that I dont think it's a shame to be lazy sometimes. Why I just stay still with piles and piles shitty questions in the mind instead of acting in the first place???? Is that normal? Why I wait?? for what?

 

Oh is it because that I feel alone? I didnt get enough training of working in group so I didnt have confidence on team spirit? Have I not yet  got used to working in teams? or What???

 

ACTING instead of MEDITATING

 

ALRIGHTY

圣诞假期结束，新的学期又开始了。我的心情还是那么得不高不低，不起不落，可以感觉到伤感、焦虑、厌倦的混合参杂着习惯性的自我鼓舞，是我自我鼓励的麻木了，还是我的这个惯用招数正在奏效中？？其实很多时候，一件小小的事情都可以让我开心很久，朋友的一个赞同的眼神或者看电影意外的便宜了两块钱，为什么这次这些小小的事情不能让我开心那么久了？是我变得更成熟现实了，还是我意识到那些小小的事情是自己麻痹和掩饰忧伤的伎俩，时间长了自然就不再有效......

 

是我读书太久了？是我来到了一个陌生的国家？是我遇到的每个人都太复杂了，还是我自己一直都太幼稚，太简单？为什么有好多好多的问题在我脑子里？？ 也许这仅仅是每个人都会经历的心情低谷期，过两天就什么都好了：）

 

哦，我亲爱的blog，原谅我好久都没有来跟你聊天了，我的身边发生了太多的事情需要思考，但是我又不知道怎么样用文字表达出来。我觉得自己可能是个奇怪的人，或者是个疯狂的人，希望这些奇怪和疯狂的基因在我身体里朝着好的方向变化吧！！

 

新的一年，祝愿每个人能够更开心，健康而有收获 ：-*

 

Yeah it is a bit late to talk about my weekend in Paris for Bastille Day, I've been too lazy to write, by the way I still have not finished my internship repport :(  I dont know, I'm just not at all motivated to do it!!!

 

Oh the weekend in Paris was amazing, I stayed with a couple from Xi'an. I got to know them in Grenoble,they are architects,very very nice people, they made me a great sichuan dish, spicy of course but absolutely tasty :)

 

The fireworks at the foot of Eiffel Tower was soooooooooo romantic and beautiful, hmmmm now I know why France has the reputation as the most romantic country in the world, who cant be the one when combine these elements together: the Seine, Eiffel Tower, music of Mozart, nice restaurants on the boats, colorful lights........ wooow I got drunk by the beautiful scene that night. I did have the impression that I was in the movie when I saw a really gorgeous and very well dressed woman coming out from a restaurant on the boat, followed by a well dressed tall guy, and they kissed right by the side of the Seine. This reminded me of some romantic movie scence. Well, next time, heeeheee I hope next time I can bring my guy (if I'm lucky enough to find one in France) to Paris and kiss him at the foot of Eiffel Tower and right by the side of the Seine too :)

 

OK JJ needs to bring her back to real life :) I must get up a bit earlier tomorrow morning and do some work, as compensation for my "hard-working" morning a nice lunch and dinner are waiting for me tomorrow :)

 

Adja Adja Fighting !!!!!

Hello my blog, sorry, I've been busy these days, and I was supposed to write this page two days ago, but anyways, I just have a little time now,and it's 2 am, hmmmm it's my bed time, hehheee well mom is not here ,soooo whatever!!!

 

I had a wonderful weekend on the beach with friends althought it was a little cold so that I couldnt put my new swimming suit on, dommage !! It rained too, so we had to go to a bar instead of staying on the beach, listening to the sea. Buuuut it turned out that Touquet is a very very nice seaside village, cute villas with flashy colors, I felt as in the cartoons, annnnnd lots of seafood, woooow but what a pity, they are too expensive for me as this moment :-( so I just visited the seafood restaurants from outside and imagined what if I was inside there heheee

 

I had greeeeaaat fun too after coming back from the beach, while watching the final match French - Italian in the park with lots of football funs, very nice ambiance except for someone threw a firecracker just besides me, that was bad manner, and apparently French police had something else to do instead of catching them up!!!

 

Well I'm tired enough to go to bed now, and you guys will find more from my pictures :)

ah huh!!!! Who is the bikini wearer??  Well of course it is meeeeeeee, yeah yeah yeah I got myself a BIKINI, never imagined myself in bikini during 24 years in my life, but now yes since I came to France, since I became more and more international, lots of stuff have been changed, or have been discovered and thought over. 

 

What does my starting to wear bikini stand for?? M found me an article on BBC news this afternoon when I showed him my new jeans color bikini. It says that this itsy bitsy 4 triangle thing has been celebrated as helping with the emancipation of women and lambasted as turning women into objects of desire. The bikini wearers have passed into legend, becoming iconic images of 20th century culture. The bikini has become a symbol of female expression, it really gives people confidence and it's emblematic of freedom, it's about fun, it's about play and it's a lifestyle...

 

hmmmm I quite agree with what this article says, and I'm quite satisfied with myself when I look in the mirror :-) not perfect of course but I'm happy enough!! OK then I'll wait to go to the BEACH now!!!

 

Why do I support 100% the French?? well they are old but persistent, they are trying hard but step by step, they have proven that they are still there, in the world cup stadium after days'  battles, never give up...

 

ALLEZ LES BLEUS!!!! BONNE CHANCE POUR LE FINAL!!!!

 

By the way, i visited Kun's photo albums, he has great food pictures, really really great ones!!!!

----- slobbering

 

 

 

I love the nights, because they are much more clean, more quiet, more luminous. Summer nights are refreshing, I can see very clear the sky from my window with stars winking...... hmmmmm a deep deep breath .... but...I smelt my anti-mosquito spray....yeah mosquitoes are the only thing that I hate in these nights.

 

I finally started my internship report today, have to finish it before the 26th, woooow great!! I become excited just thinking of going to the south of France, everything will go perfect  no??? the sun, the beach, the sea, the sand, the  mountain, the restaurants, the pretty girls, the hot boys, the happy families...... well ok STOP

 

TOMORROW action plans: get up early, write as many pages as I can, make myself a nice dinner with eggplants,yeah I love eggplants :)

 

I'm missing you all !!

 

Night

A sad story for girls......

 

She has realized that she is in love with him after a short time being together (or better call it a relationship), but it is already too late, coz apparently he is not any more interested in her. Still she decides to try again to bring him back, because she regrets a lot that she has missed the best time to let him know how much she likes him. Well everything just happened soooo fast that she didnt have enough time to notice the change inside of her.

 

Then one day, she decided to let this guy know why she got more and more involved in him. In order not to forget about anything, she wrote down all that she liked about him on a piece of paper and she would do for the first time in her life something crazy : read out loud all what she likes in him and tell him that she cant let him go because she has done none of what she wants to do WITH HIM. She had a picture in her mind : standing at midnight downstairs of his building, while watching him from the big window, she would pronounce to him her love declaration on the phone. She made up her mind and wanted to try her best, coz this time, it was different, she wanted to save her precious love for someone she never had such a strong feeling before......

 

She had dinner with a friend in a nice restaurant and she took several glasses of vin on purpose coz she needed more courage.

 

She arrived at midnight and  she saw that the light was on in his sitting room (great, that means he's already got back home). She dialed his number and waited, she could even hear her heart beating fast coz the wait made her very anxious, then she saw from the big window someone ran into the sitting room and immediately, she heard a girl's voice : "hello, I'm a friend of his, he's not home yet, but will be back in half an hour normally,can I take a message or a number to call back when he comes home?" hmmm this was a biiiiig surprise, it was not in her plan, there was not supposed to have a girl. She didnt want to leave a message so she decided to wait for him downstairs, she was sure that she could see him when he got back home.

 

She waited and waited and waited,  2 hours passed, she couldnt wait any more, she was still sick and it was still cold in this summer night, she saw the light went out not long ago, so she decided to call again and leave a message. This time, surprised again, he answered the phone. Apparently, she scared him, it didnt make any sense to him that she was downstairs of his building at 2 am, he said he had come back home for some time but he didnt see her waiting outside (probably he got back home by another door). She had prepared a lot to say, but suddenly she found it really ridiculous, it was a romantic plan in her mind, a crazy one for her, she was even surprised by herself for this 100% motivation to make this plan come true, she thought that was a mysterious power,something like fate that brought her soo much courage buuuuut what happened was that she was waiting for 2 hours and they missed each other.

 

well this is not a good story but it is true. I didnt choose lots of descriptive words while writing, for me this is more like a statement. I dont know, life is actually very very real, no matter how romantic we want it to be, sometimes it's too real to add the colors.

 

hmmmmm I'm not at all pessimistic just sometimes gloomy.......

 

OK now the whole world is talking about football, although I cant totally understand why it is fascinating to watch a 90 mins game about 22 people runing forward and back and round a 7140 m2's playground, trying their best and with a chinese old expression using the force of nine cattle plus two tigers just in order to shoot in a 17.8608 m2's goal, well it is a guys game right?  buuuuut still I'll say bravo! bravo! to all the football players and  to all the football funs, no matter you are the ones who draw the national flag on the face or the ones who strip all except covering the key points on the body, hmmm no wonder that football is a game full of passion, pride and fun!!!!!

 

I dont watch lots of matches coz sorry I find some of them kind of boring, I prefer volleyball and basketball, soo seeking for cute faces on soccer field is what I do exactly while watching the game. I'm sorry that we, chinese are not that good at football and I'm pretty sure lots of chinese girls are very disappointed as me  coz we do want to wear sexy, waving our five stars red flag in the stadium and shouting  out loud "zhongguodui jia you! zhongguo shuaige xiongqi!!!!!!"(come on the chinese team, erect up chinese cute boys lol) but which disappointed me again this year was that I opened my eyes as wide as I ever could during the Friendship France- China, 3 to 1 by the way, I didnt find any cute chinese players :( 555555555 (this means tears falling down my face). and in world cup matches, in my opinion, Korean players are less cute than Japanese.......

 

hmmmm tomorrow will be the first day of summer sales, I'm gonna go and have a check, hopefully I can find a nice swimming suit before leaving for South France :)

 

Good luck to France in the match with Brazil and good luck to the world cup matches!!!

I got a call from my French girlfriend this afternoon, she invited me with another girl to have bbq at her place, what a nice invitation!!! I've  been not motivated to go out since I got sick, but I just got really excited when I heard the wonderful word BBQ, oh I love bbq, well ahhh better say I'm very very enthusiastic about food, "JJ jumps up and down when she hears that we are going to eat" as my american cowboy friend used to say...... it turned out that we had a greaaat time together, we talked, laughed, dansed, ate, drank and relaxed for the whole evening , I appreciate this very close feeling between us, no matter what nationality you have, no matter how old you are, well, girls just  can sometimes  get really close to each other and totally understand each other.

 

My girlfriend told me an amazing story happened to her roomate, another french girl but with Vietnamese origin. Four years ago, this girl  met a guy somewhere abroad with a bunch of others in a school programme if I didnt make any mistake, after short time get together, all of them separated, some went back to England, some to France and some to Sweden, and they just keep in touch as friends. This year, lots of them came back to France for Ascension Day, including this Swedish guy, all of them hung out together, but some sparkle broke out for some reason between him and the French girl. So when he went back home, this guy sent a letter to her which said: for your birthday I've prepared a wonderful present. The girl found with this letter a train ticket from Lille to Swedish city where he lives, and she of course accepted this invitation...... now we dont know what is going on over there, but I was totally touched just by hearing this, romance in real life.

 

well,I dont know why exactly, for such a long time, I didnt like watching romantic love stories coz I didnt believe that those stories would happen in real life, then gradually I became very practical and very realistic. I always thought a lot before I took actions and I was always asking myself why I had feeling for someone......Recently I realized that I lost the feeling of romance in my life, I became tooooo rational and missed lots of fun with those people I could really have fun with. Well acctually life is real and full of romance, sometimes just dont try sooo hard to seek for the reasons, but go with the feeling and listen to our heart, and then we can enjoy and surprise ourselves.

 

For some reason, I did something that I never thought I would : I prayed in the church. I've always been believing in some mysterious power which is called fate and I think my fate has brought me to the church to meet the person that would make me think more about what I've been looking for and who I've been waiting for. I dont believe in God YET, but I trust this person who brought me to him. I prayed for him and I prayed for both of us. To me It's not important any more which religion I belong to, nor if God exists, nor if what I prayed would come true, all that counts here is that I did something that I never ever imagined before, for someone and for both of us.

Internet is lovely, when you have nothing to do or not motivated to do anything,just get online and there you can always find something to cheer you up. I've been watching for the whole day some interesting romantic love tv series online GREEEEAAAAT!!!! I love watching tv :-P

 

It seems that I'm getting much better now,feeling the energy starting to fill in my body again!!but got bad news this morning from a French girlfriend: she has to redo her internship report coz the prof considers it as not enough theoretical and suggets her to go to the library and read more theoretical books....... I'm starting to worry about mine :-( I hate doing homework, I hate doing all the reports ahhhhh <sigh> well good news is that I still have a whole weekend not to think of anything about it, we are not supposed to work on weekends right?! and  we are in FRANCE a beautiful country for relaxing :-)

 

I dont often get sick, but this time I almost finished all the pills I had taken along with me from China, I have to go to French pharmacy next time henghmm, this is not cool!!! OR I'll take much much better care of myself so that I wont get sick till I go back home :--) hehehehahaha

 

OK I'm talking nonsense now, night night

hmmmm several months ago, someone asked me this question, I never really thought of it before, coz I didnt think it was necessary to think of it and I was too busy and too lazy to think of it. I dont know, is it now the time for me to think of it? since people in my world all start to ask themselves what is wrong? why we stay alone? why we become impatient? ......Sometimes I just cant believe how the coincidence and coherence manifest between me and my girls, France and China, well not that far away but still 11 hours by plane,it's amazing how we can still feel how each other feels.

 

My friends start to get married,I'm soooo happy to hear that, they've been looking for the right person for such a loooooog time and finally they meet each other and get ready and courage to set up a family,woooow this is .....powerful hehee. I think I'm a very patient person, I dont think I'll get married in the coming 5 years,well only Mr Right can change my mind, but I'm starting to ask myself what is my type of guy?? A handsome and rich prince on the white horse comes and picks me up to live in the castle?? oooh no thanks, in my dreams,perhaps, I'd try to date a prince :) hmmm what about a knight-errant (lol the english translation) in chinese martial art novels,ooh yeah !!there is one guy which is pretty my type : yangguo, but the love between him and his girlfriend is tooo hard, I dont want to wait for 16 years for a promise. maybe someone like James Bond hahahaha?? no no no he has too many girlfriends, he'll be too busy to think of me......

 

anyways I am a person living in real life, not in movies nor novels. What kind of guy I'll get interested??

well i hope that he's tall because I love high heel shoes, so I can still lean on his shoulder when I put on my shining shoes; I hope he speaks good english,coz I speak english a lot in my life and it becomes part of my life, and a bit North American accent is perfect since it's very cute; I hope he is caring and enjoys taking care of me,coz if he treats me as a princess, I'll treat him as a king; I hope he has a very good taste of fashion coz I love dressing pretty and he can always be my loyal consultant; I hope he would like to finish the food that I cant,coz I have a feeling that he is my hero when I look at him finishing mine; I hope he has strong arms, then I can pretend to have twisted my ankles and ask him for a piggy back on the way back home after a movie; I hope he is patient and a good listener coz I talk a lot and ignore sometimes if he gets bored or not; I hope he works on his passion, coz men just get incredibly sexy and hot when they show their passion on what they are doing; I hope he would like to give me a call everyday coz I want to be the first person to know if he's having a wonderful time; I hope he would never give me up and  be willing to try again even if I make him very disappointed sometimes, coz I appreciate how we try to learn and understand each other and grow up together!!!!and of course I'll try my best and surprise him how gradually I get to know the deepest part of him and never make him disappointed again!!! He doesnt have to be handsome and rich coz everyone will grow old and I prefer saving money together with him. well romantic? hmmm someone said that I was freaky, I'm pretty sure that lots of fancy ideas will come out in my mind if we give each other enough time to find out!!! Moreover, I hope he has a nice balcony where we can stay in the quiet summer nights,looking at stars and then I can tell him the story about chinese valentine's day; I hope he likes yahoo launch cast R&B music coz some of them are really good and then we can danse at home without being bothered, well he'd better insist in asking me to danse though coz I just sometimes get too shy; I hope that he is good at teaching coz I'm good at learning and then he can always be my private professor; I hope he is ahhh.......etc, etc

 

heheee OK this is what in my mind at this moment, maybe something will change as time goes by, who knows?!

 

I think I have to start doing my internship report next week, I get tooo lazy this week and I take the cold as an excuse, that's why I have so much time to think about this kind of stuff. hmmm JJ get better soon and ready for work!!!!

 

Look at this little cute guy on the photo, he must be my type when he grows up hehehe but what a pity that I'd be tooooo old for him by then :(

21 June, it's la fete de la musique (music festival) in France, I went out with my girls although I was having a hard time because of the cold. Tonight it was cold outside.

 

well it was good, all kinds of music everywhere down the streets , outside the bars and cafes : rock band, folk popular songs and disco DJ playing too, on a nice stage with plenty colorful lights by the way...... I was not very fond of rock, but enjoyed a lot being around lots of people moving and shaking. An english band outside Quick was pretty good, a little bit light jazz I think, I enjoyed the woman singing......

 

Around 11:30 I left my friends and went back home, a little bit headache and I started to cough,not serious fortunately, then I put on yahoo lauchcast and listened to R&B, hmmm I think I still like R&B music, very commercial ones heheee just as I like lots of commercial US movies :-) They've become part of my life.

 

I'm wondering who won the match tonight? the Dutch team or Argentinian?

Dad called me to get online, he just got back in chengdu today, it was already very late in China,around 2am. He decided to get retired, I dont really like this word, retire, does it mean that he is getting old and tired? In my mind both he and mom are still very young, full of energy, and always take care of me, being my strenth origin as always and as forever, but now I think I have to understand that they are getting elder and weaker...... Life, isnt it?

 

He starts to think more and more about my life, my marriage as all the other chinese parent, I totally understand and I very very appreciate it. As the old chinese saying:可怜天下父母心 heheee How can I translate that into a foreign language?? In our culture, parents think much more for the children than themselves, they can even give up the life  that they've been looking for,if necessary, just in order to make their childrens' life better. We wonder if it's worth that in my generation ......

 

It's hard to set up a clear guiding in my thoughts, not because I'm writing in English, but because there's soo much in my mind (here I wanna say the writers are really cool people,just when I think of  how they can explain their deep thoughts by words!!!! )

 

The worst is that I'm getting very tired because of the pills, I cant concentrate,nor think. Buuuut, something became more and more clear in my mind when I saw my parents in cam : A marriage is not only a vow, but also a process of learning, understanding, communicating, conceding and persisting......

 

 

oooh the cold is killing me........

hmmmmm now i realized that i got sick. Yesterday i spoke to mom on phone,she told me that  I caught cold just by hearing my voice (wow this is amazing, can i tell if my daughter have caught cold or not when i become a mom??) and then my girlfriend came by for lunch, we spoke on the phone again and she said that i sounded like sick (how do they know? i have not at all realized that,just wondering how she said the same thing as mom did) buuut, today i realized that i got sick, i had pain in my throat when i woke up and i sneezed for a whole day,kind of a fever i think, but no headache.....

 

Before I go to bed, I met a friend online, I told him I would write this in my blog. He was like ''oh man this is not true? why you write all those little stuff in your blog?? all the bla bla bla'' hmmm well I pretty like speaking to myself when I'm sad in particular. while looking at myself in the mirror I can always find courage again, and be confident again!!! now i think blog is a very good tool to talk to myself, at least i can keep all the tracks in my thinking. when i think of this, another idea just came into my mind, what i'm writing here will be a good method of communication with my futur boyfriend!!! as i realized recently, i dont express myself very well and i make people misunderstand , i do some silly stuff and then i get regretful, but this is not what i mean to.

 

 I've been thinking how a stranger can understand another?? by their good friends? but if one of them doesnt get the chance to know the other person's freinds who know him well how can this stranger understand the other one?? (wow i made a complicated sentence,wondering if after few days it still makes sense to me !!)

 

anyways, i enjoy very much talking to myself and discovering myself, find out what a person i am, what i need, what i'm looking for

 

hmmm i think it's time to take some pills and go to bed since tomorrow i have work to do :-) night night

 

ahhhhh chiou......... i sneezed again

I was pretty busy last week.

 

Thursday night all of our work team were invited to watch a fashion show organized by a fashion school, it was great. I didnt understand the job of fashion clothes designers, why they made clothes that nobody could wear in real life but during the time i watched the show, i just realized that  some of those clothes were soooooo beautiful, each of them could be a piece of art work. I even got motivated to put those art works on and perform on the T stage !! wow this is amazing how they get inspired to add certain modern elements into old and traditional clothes, and  i felt really fun to see a guy wearing ladies under clothes on the stage heheee

 

Friday night i went to a concert organized by EDF (French national electricity company. hmmmm it was a classic concert which gives a hint of boredom hehehee well this is not true though. But i admit that some of the compositions made me really want to fall asleep but i enjoyed "sir john in love" ,''Romio and Julillette''and another piece made by an italien but i cant remember the name.

 

However the cocktail is what i really want to emphasize heheee, soooo many stuff to eat, shrimps, meat rolls, saumon,cakes,fruits,champagne etc etc hmmm they had snails tooo, i tried but didnt like that much. I had the impression to have become a greedy cat sneaking around and seeking for food :) a wonderful time!!!

 

 

This was a pretty exciting experience!!!

 

well a friend called me to go to the opera de Lille last Saturday afternoon at its opening day for free, so i went there and the opera's band was playing French music and i was standing at the third floor as to have a better view of their show.

 

But suddenly i heard a very familiar melody,and i realized that  it was a chinese folk opera 各位中文看官，当时演出的is天仙配！！I was really happy to hear chinese melody in a french opera, so i just clapped to the music and a guy in the band saw me there and he made a gesture to ask me to get down, from his pointing at me, all the audience turned around and stared at me, I got really nervous and shy so that I couldnt move and had no idea what i was gonna do.

 

By then the whole band just went up to the third floor and played around me. I was staying in the middle and crowed by all of them and they asked me to sing. soooooo I ended up doing a vocal solo which was really really cool.

 

Luckily the audience seemed to have pretty enjoyed, there were even some people asked me if i was a singer wow hehehee, thanks to the karaok that i did lots of practice of singning in china :)

 

ooooh there was a guy filming me too, my friend told me he was from France 3 television, i dont know but i just enjoyed a lot imaging that i might be present in the tv news heheee and being a super star!!!

 

The pity is that i dont have any pics of me singing, i met two chinese people there, they thought i was supposed to stand there and sing, like kinda organized. They took some pics of me by their cellphone but they were just tooo small to see clearly :-(

well hello people, i never got motivated to creat a blog for myself before some of my friends complained that they had no idea of what i was doing recently. I am sooooo sorry for that and then here i'm typing the first page of it!! But a big question came into my mind when i started it, what language i would use?? Since i often get myself lost in my three languages, i'm afraid that i will mix them together when i express myself,sooo bodies, dont complain about it!!!

 

Hmmm what i'm gonna say on my very first page? Well welcome to the blog world of JJ!!!

 

I woke up very early this morning and i cant fall asleep back again, well something is in my mind apparently, then i said to myself:"why not write something?anything, even just bla bla bla, just make a track in the memory " soo i did it. I put up my recent pics, they are all about my internship. Everyday I was trying to get all the jokes the French people made while working,sometimes it worked sometimes it didnt but I had a great time with them and i learnd lots of French expressions which is reaaally cool......

 

 

Hmmmm i hope you guys can have a simple idea of what i'm doing now from the pics!!!!!